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hose of you who know me very well, you know that I am a very positive person. I don’t get Angry, or hold grudges or hold on to “injustices.”
hose of you who know me very well, you know that I am a very positive person. I don’t get Angry, or hold grudges or hold on to “injustices.” Well, an event happened earlier this year, in late January that tore a hole in that mantle. I became obsessed, stressed, angry, hateful, resentful, negative, and could not shake it. I lived in this very dark, toxic place for several months, and it wasn’t until recently that I was able to release those feelings, let go of the events that had colored my self-worth, my self-image, and my belief in my future.
I returned to my core, became present in my life, and stopped borrowing worry from the future. All this was exactly what I needed to do, and I feel so much better, not carrying that toxic baggage around with me.
However.
The damage from living in such a toxic frame of mind for so long has taken it’s toll. I compromised my Immune system (high amounts of stress will do that), and that evil, ever-lurking Chickenpox virus caught me! Yup, Friday I found out I had Shingles! My mother had Shingles and suffered with the very painful backlash from it for the remainder of her life. This was not the prognosis I was going to accept.
So, I choose to view this event as a lesson, a warning, of sorts, that dwelling in anger, focusing on hatred and frustration can only toxify your life. I am grateful for this reminder and I am confident that I will stay “present” and positive, and focused on NOW, not borrowing trouble, pain or worry from a place in time that I cannot impact, where, in the present, I can affect tremendous change.
If this story speaks to anyone, who is trapped in anger, frustration, hate, or any toxic emotion, I urge you to find a way to let it go, and focus on now!
You may have a slightly different story, or a more devastating wake-up call, so I urge you to share your thoughts, and help some others get out of the “going-nowhere-toxic-heap of hatred, anger, blame, and frustration,” into the now, the present, where you can focus on you now, and your plan to get to the real tomorrow.
